Thought for a Sunday...

"Be still, and know that I am God." This is my thought for the last couple of weeks and probably the next couple. As you all know, i will graduate in December and attempt to find a job. It has been hard for me to restrain myself from getting a job now (like an aid or something) in the hospitals just so I have a foot in the door. Everybody seems to be doing it...and the job market is not good. Nevertheless, I have prayed and fasted a lot and I realize that now is not the time. I keep getting the answer, "not yet." If you know me at all, you know I am a doer. I like to take care of things myself. That, my friends, is why it's so hard to sit back and watch my friends getting some type of job and not FREAK OUT! I am doing absolutely everything I can, from guarding my 4.0 GPA with my life, to volunteering anywhere I think might have potential, to doing my internship at a smaller, closer hospital where I might actually have a shot at getting hired as a new grad. I am doing all I can. "Be still, and know that I am God." I just keep repeating it. It's from the D&C somewhere and I read it one day after thinking about some things. And, I'm trying...to be still, and let God be in charge. I hate that! I like to be the boss. (Does "you're not the boss of me" sound familiar to anyone?) Yeah, I say that a lot.